Many things coming along. Syf, tests and exams, guitar. Reaching home at 7 everyday camping at the studio, spending 7-8 as the only break time for me, and from 9 onwards it's mugging. Then I will practice till that layer of skin on my finger tip tear off on the guitar when I have time. So stressful, I feel like a part of me is rotting off, and keeping inspired and trying to feel optimistic all the time, it's just plain tiring. :(
There were countless times I wish I would just give up because it's really too damn late, y'know. Coming for cca every single day till 6 even if it's voluntary, in spite of all those tests, it's mentally challenging, and going to bed, something I dread for 1 full year, turns out to be the most relaxing, even though it stresses me out.
It's bloody hard to feel inspired, or at least, put on an inspired front. There are people who aren't geared up for this at all, and I have no idea how to make them feel the rush of excitement every time they open the studio door, just like how my seniors made everyone else and me feel it when we were all juniors.
I can't say that I'm the worst off but I hope I'll really be able to pull this through, and syf will also be able to pull this through. It gives eveyone excessive stress too, but hey, we are all stressed together :D So far I don't think anyone is complaining, I hope not, really hope not. Because that very second you think you aren't going to give a shit, you've lost the passion that burns in you.