First I'm going to promise myself to never suck the life out of myself again. Whether is it excessive worry, over protective about myself, too conscious over what people say, wondering what is going to happen next, throw, throw, throw. I have decided that from today onwards, I lead my own life and I will not let myself destroy it, neither would I let anyone! :D
Nowadays the sky seems brighter, the leaves move about more, the water looks more ready-to-go, the clouds look more sprinty, and the faces on everyone look lit. Maybe it's just me, but after escaping my hell hole of worry, anxiety, depression and guilt, I FEEL FREE-ER!
Finally I found my own way of supressing my depressing side. It must be scary, because I don't believe anyone has see that side of me before. The cold hands, the cold sweat, the chattering, the shivering and shaking, the disturbing thoughts, HAS NEVER ATTACKED ME FOR 3 WHOLE DAYS. I feel proud of myself because this is the largest breakthrough I have ever made so far. FANTASTIC!
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Damn okto for sending me emails which I don't want to have. They fill my inbox and adds extra work for me seiving them through my mails and deleting them. Especially with the type of internet I'm having, I can totally do that as my next hobby or a pass time.
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Yesterday's CCA session WAS AWESOME! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D I can tell because our juniors are so into it, and they have improved by approximately 8 alphabets. (Chow insisted that we cannot use percentage because we aren't maths club. I forgot to bring a jacket to shield his cold joke.) Also our batch are pretty into judging and giving comments. WONDERFUL WONDERFUL WONDERFUL!! THANK YOU GUYS VERY MUCH FOR BEING SO ENTHUSIASTIC!!!!!! Jia you our juniors and please fking win the story challenge next year to reclaim our faces.
Get well soon therena! Year 3s jia you!
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It will be 2 months before malay fighting scene filming starts again. As for now, its Upin dan Ypin! So lame!!
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I forgot who to thank! This sucks. I have nots of people to thank. First to all my friends esp. xiu mei and yi wen who pulled me out of my hell hole. Without your helping hands, I might have been dead literally. Literally, literally, literally.
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I feel active and that's why I change my topics so fast. Fast fast fast fast fast, I need to do something energy consuming. How about, com games? Homework is boring and it sucks. I have tons of it on my back and I don't feel like doing anything now. :) I'M JUST FEELING HAPPY! :D :D :D :D :D GREAT TO FEEL MYSELF!! HELLO ZHENG ZHANG, WELCOME BACK HOME! HMMM... LET'S SEE, WHAT SHOULD YOU DO? PLAY A LAME JOKE?
Reply: "HEY YO! JOKES ARE ALL LAME BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO LEGS AND THERE ISN'T A WALKING JOKE. OH WAIT, I SEE A WALKING JOKE. IT'S YOU!"
OMG the reply was so lame and I thought of it within 30 seconds. Reasonable achievement. :D