Had to come back here. Wasn't feeling too well nor dealing good with anxiety. Gah, lie down and your heart starts pumping and you start sweating. Piss off.
Nothing for me to blog about today. :D From now onwards I will start something called the gratitude journal, which I will use to thank the people around me who have helped me in one way or another. As for today, I'm going to thank:
Hubert, for talking to me in the morning and not let me feel so lonely because everone have their friends and I'm totally walking to class alone after assembly.
Yu gao, Terence, Ying Hao, Wei Sheng, for raping me in the morning. Yeah it's very funny, but it means we're brothers. Same, I don't feel too lonely in school. Though I don't feel like getting raped again, I totally appreciate your rapes. This sounds wrong.
Ying Jie and Elizebelle and Nicole and Da Xin, for putting up with all my lame jokes and dumb shit in class. Yeah whatever I said is stupid and lame, but when you guys laugh, I feel happy. :D
Bing Da, for filming the punch scene with me in the toilet with Terence and Yugao and Wei Sheng. Though it was only 5 mins in the toilet, it was totally fun and I won't mind fiming the punch scene again. :)
Xiu mei, for throwing Good Asian Values into my class today. Though you suck at aiming and I suck at catching and the disc ended up 4 seats away from my table, thanks for making the effort to pass it to me.
Terence and Brandon, for eating lunch with me today so I won't have to do it myself.
Hubert, for calling me and pang-sehing me at the same time.
Wan Yi, for passing me this cute thing after class even though you had to rush home and eat lunch. Also for messaging me whenever I feel weird and anxious for no reason. Thank you.
Yi Wen, for accepting my lousily played trick even though you weren't up to have a trick played on at the time I tricked you because of other matters.
Jaclyn, for making effort to call me telling me that you will give Xiu Mei and I the script by tomorrow because I got your number wrong.
My mom, who went to buy snacks for me and wanted to cut pineapples for me. :D
Hopefully with this gratitude journal I will learn to appreciate the people around me and feel happier in life, in one way or another kick away the anxious and depressing side of me sooner or later. Working hard working hard working hard! I'M AIMING TO BE MYSELF AGAIN AFTER HALF A YEAR OF TORTURE.
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Didn't sleep well again. Now I have an untouched scs essay to complete, an 800 word du hou gan, maths question 5-7 and CID script to be completed by tomorrow. No mood to do any work. Shall just go watch Good Asian Values. Lol bye. :)