I found it better to blog about my feelings rather that blog about how bored I am so I can come back whenever I want to read them :) It's like the check points in your life you want to mark so that you will know what totally happened to your life. :)
First off I'm going to start talking about my life. This episode of my life was one which I never thoought would have taken place in my life at least at this point of time.
First I had a treasure box. I never imagined myself finding a treasure box now, and I really enjoyed. But now the treasure is gone, and all it's left is the box. I thought, feeling happy out of the treasure is pretty good and really really happy, but all things have to come to an end. I never thought it would, and I write in down to make myself not commit the same grave mistake I have done. Thank you ver much for being part of my life. :)
I am a vice president in my CCA. Pretty much on glory and irritation from people playing with the rings, but I need more effort impression-wise. I never knew what makes a good leader, and I have never imagined myself being a leader. Perhaps from this point onwards I need to learn how to be more efficient and not so lazy. Never wanted to be a leader, but when you make people smile because of your efforts, you just want to do more. :D
I love my CCA. I have always been looking forward to CCA all the time. Since after sec 2, things changed and we don't really have a coach already. Plus I missed doing debates a lot. Lots of stuff happened and many stuff broke along with it, some picked up and fixed, some taped to hide it out and bury the facts of what happened, some still broken but left uncared for. I hope it can all end up like last year when everything was so much more innocent and straightforward. We have rowdy juniors who entertain us and I hope they can do as well as our year 5 and 6 in future. :)
I'm in 3J. 3J is a pretty weird class for me. I don't have any close friends in class other than Terence even after so long. Class has been pretty bonded but I haven't found a close friend from my class. Change in personalities and way things works, are still main obstacles I have to look out for when I enter my class. Pretty weird but how I hope I can get used to my class faster.
I have close friends to pour my stuff to :) That's the best because they keep me entartained and build barriers between me and the open window :) And they care for me :D :D :D Knowing that makes you feel happy so much :)
I have chronic insomnia and generalised anxiety disorder. That's the worst because you feel anxious and depressed out of no reason all the time, and you have to worry what each night holds. I never felt relaxed on bed and have to constantly check on myself to see if I'm anxious for no reason. Without money to see a psychitrist and a sleep expert, I'm living day by day wishing my condition will improve.
Next off I'm going to thank my best friends:
Hubert: Hello Fisherman. On the first day of school in RV, you were my table partner and you are exceptionally short. I know that you are such a dick, but hey yeah thanks for wasting time all the time with me whenever I'm bored. Also when I have problems and I come to you, you give straight-forward and heartless solutions, but dumbfuck all of them bloody makes sense. If I have problems when it comes to sense and logic, I always come to you. Thanks for swimming with me and being a dick with me because I feel most relaxed when I'm with you. Since we are both pretty much similar inside, love guitar and music, think more or less the same way, and look for each other when we are bored, we are buddies and I really enjoy your company whenever I'm bored. Please don't leave my side or the entertainment level in my life really goes a long way down. And you are a wonderful friend because we get along almost totally well all the time with no problems at all. I like spending time with you because you are the type that will be childish with me or sing out loud in public with me do all sorts of stuff with me and whatever, and never once make me feel undermined or useless or say anything to hurt me on purpose. You are predictable and when I know I'm going home with you after school, things are going to get light hearted and laughters will fill us. Thank you very much for being my friend. :D

Xiu Mei: Hello :) you are my other best friend :) but unless we are in studio I have never felt comfortable around you in school I'm so sorry -.- unlike what you said I'm never afraid something will happen between both of you, and I feel uncomfortable around out outside cca because there will be people looking and laughing and people who have a crushes on you will dislike me so yaa :D I remembered on the first day of cca you hanged out with Bernice and Vivan and Marion and I totally don't have the guts to talk to you peoplee, but SYF does that job :) You are my best friend because your cheerful personality is what I admire about the most just like Hubert. When I have problems and I come to you, you don't do it the same style as Hubert and you make it more cushioned and not-so-straight-forward. With so many things changing in my life this year, you have been an awesome listener because after I tell you my problems I always feel much better :) I can still remember the time you hated me for real and yeah that totally suck ass. Because of my bored life talking to you also lightens my mood all the time :D Although you aren't as readily available as Hubert you still can make me feel entertained :D It feels great being around you (during cca) because the freaking high pitch sounds you make (I'm so damn sorry) do the magical job of cheering me up :) On the outside you haven't change a least bit but I think you have become more matured :) Please stay cheerful and thank you for acknowledging me as a friend :)

As for the treasure chest, stuff is private.
My life changed a hell lot since I entered secondary school and I hope changes always occur the way I want it so I will remain happy and postive and my life will always be interesting to have things to look forward to. Though I really don't like my life right now due to fking insonmia, but hey my life is pretty interesting. :D
Maybe I sould do these type of stuff monthly to keep track of my life and its direction.

Labels: direction, Hubert, me, Treasure chest, Xiu mei