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The following are entries of real crap.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

EOYs are tomorrow and hope my anxiety won't resurface.
Something's wrong with me.
I hope I won't screw you up. Well, I'm pretty selfish and I always want to get what I want. Uhh.
Anyway life now sucks :)
I feel confused over the same stuff all the time. Sometimes I think I'm a dick and sometimes I can't control. Zzz.
Well, Since then I have been unsure of my feelings all the time. Stuff aren't supposed to be like this and I know it full time. However I'm driving myself consciously into something I dreaded I will feel. More and more need, more and more indespensible.
Leave things for now. :)

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Sunday, September 26, 2010

Things moved on and I smiled more.
:D

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Thursday, September 23, 2010

Wondering if I should have been busier.
Argh zz wtf are you thinking man -.-
Bent on quitting eff words from now on.
I'm starting to wonder if partial exemption was even a good choice. It made me slack off so much. I don't have any mood to study anymore.
*looks around* I need a person to talk to.
What sould I do now :O No com games, no mood to mug, and blogs too scary for me to go. You tube is getting boring. Guess I should take out that guitar of mine. :D

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Sunday, September 19, 2010

I ran out of envolopes so I won't be writing letters anymore!! At least for this post :)
Life's boring without CCA
I have no mood to mug
And life's pretty empty nowadays.
Argh I recieve 4 sms a day wtf.
ANyway I'm off to play com. Such a surprise that I can bring myself to play com now.
Yeah yeah Xiu Mei see I've updated and wrote such a wonderful post worth winning as world records: best blogpost ever.
Damn la my bro spoil my kazoo zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
I want CCA back because tuesdays and fridays are boring. And aww I miss all of you all already :O
Playing "soccer" in class is good borkout :D *muscle aches*
BORRRRRRRED

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Monday, September 13, 2010

I'm so fucked up today.
My mom is picking on me non-stop after I just reached home.
I ate and I was pretty full. She said I took too little rice.
"Bu hao chi gai ci bu zhu la. Na jiang shao fan, shen me tai du"
Fine I took a scoop more.
"Shen me tai du. Mei da mei xiao. Chi fan gei wo can shi bu shi?"
I got fucking pissed off. I just reached home and she screws me up like that. My bro took as much rice as me and whatever, and yaya, he's always the angel all the time.
I gobbled down my rice and eat my anger down and I went to bathe.
"Fa pi qi lor, nian yi dian fa pi qi lor. Gai ci bu shuang bu chi la, bu shuang gai ci mei tian wai mian mai fan chi la."
I was crying when I bathed because I don't know whether I should be pissed. Even when I'm pissed, I don't want to apologise.
Then I went to do scs on my com. Just coincidentally my bro's com broke down.
From outside the room:
mom: "You xie ren lor. Dong bu dong jiu fa pi qi. Fa pi qi dong lai dong qu long huai dian nao lor. Ta na ge ren jiu shi zhe yang de lor."
I fucking heard it.
I fucking, fucking heard it.
Dear mom, I'm sorry I fucking screamed at you for accusing me of things I totally didn't do. It's damn unreasonable, and I'm your son. Can you show me some god damn respect and stop blaming all the shit on me without using your brains?
I screamed at you and I don't feel like apologising at all. And the tears keep flowing. Anger or sadness?
Fucked up la.

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So much stuff to say but I don't know who to tell.

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Sunday, September 12, 2010

School's starting tomorrow.
Am I weird for looking forward to school re-opening? :O

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Saturday, September 11, 2010

Day 9: Someone I wish I can meet.
Dear Socerer (or whatever it's spelt)
I want to meet you and I want you to teachme magic. I want to have control the power of wind and air because I think it's damn cool. Hot air fight against ice, cold air fights against fire, with wind you can blow away the power of nature, and you can vacum the place to block away the power of sound, and whatever. I want to meet you and learn MAGIC AND THE POWER TO CONTROL THE ELEMENT OF WIND. I guess, I'm just living in too much anime. Argh. Though I'm pretty sure you will reject my letter and not come and see and teach me magic, well, I'm just sending you a letter.
(Hey I don't know which socerer controls the power of wind so any socerer will do :D)

First HAPPY BIRTHDAY YI WEN
Next I'm so damn bored and I'll be playing table tennis in a damn-ed 30 mins. I hate doing homework and I'm better off stoning. Maybe this explains why I'm stoning all the time and people always, somehow or rather, gets stuff to do.
And I went to a junior's blog (Microphone) and I'm so damn impressed by her English and I don't know wtf is the meaning of immolated. Hey zz, it's time for your studying and revision, and of course stoning.
I wonder if it's healthy to eat chips for lunch... hmmm... potato chips... CPU chips... Gambling chips... ARGH IT'S SO DAMN RETARDED!
School is starting and I can't wait. No CCA sucks, which means, tuesdays and fridays are days of stoning AGAIN. Some day I wonder if I'll stone too much and become a rock. Then instead of being stone all the time I'll ROCK!
Can't describe my feeling now... mmm... maybe empty? I feel that there's something missing in my life and I think I'll take pretty long to find out what it is. It's like the feeling that you know some part of your body is itching and you don't know which part it is. Weird but, wtf, all the weird shyt happens on me. ARGHHGHGHGH.
Haizz, I want to lie on something. (looks at my wall)

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Monday, September 6, 2010

Day 8: My favourite internet friend
I don't have an internet friend. awww :(
All the people I talk through the net are my reallife friends. awww :(
Anyone from the internet wants to be my friend? :D *NOOOO!!* awww :(
NO LA I will find an internet friend and then call him to give me his maple account and I will hack him of his/her money -.- aww.... :(
Yeah it's so sad and pitiful since I don't have an internet friend so it will be the second time in a row I am writing a letter with no address to send to.

Today has been ok. Mugging from the start of the day till 4 o clock is something essential but NOT GOOD. I was lonely in the school for the whole morning AWWWW * STARES STARES STARES* no la Yi Wen not your fault. :P
Eating cup noodles and drinking its soup is NEVER ENOUGH for a proper lunch. It fills a quarter of your stomach and you will need a big bag twisties to fill the rest!
Mugged in JE lib from 2 onwards till 4. Gosh, polinomials and partial fractions are killers.
TABLE TENNIS FRENZY!
Table tennis is fun and playing with bert and my bro is also fun.
Now I'm here feeling thirsty after 4 cups of water.
Guess tomorrow will be pretty lonely for me again. I WANT TO GO OUT!
GRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRAGRGARGA
Now I'm bored and I have finished my mugging/homeworking fuel for the day. Shell is so expensive it cuts so much to refuel your body. Well, won't be working a lot till those oil prices come down. :D

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Sunday, September 5, 2010

I'm not going to send a letter on the 7th day.

Yesterday was boring ttm because all I did was to sit at home, stone, do nothing, and switch on my com and look at that wallpaper for around 2 hours before closing it. Doesn't it suck so much you can't sleep in a boring day? FIND ME SOMETHING TO DO!
I was first so geared up to mug and now I'm losing my power. Wow, I promised so many people to mug together with me and now my fire's out. GOSH, I NEED MORE FUEL.
Why can't I get exempted from everything -.- HAHA that's pretty impossible :D
Well if anyone is as bored as me some day in the holidays, CARE FOR A GAME OF TABLE TENNIS? :D There is this place in my CC which charges the table at 50 cents an hour. I have the bats although 12 of my bats cost as much as Terence's rubber. But hey, table tennis is still pretty fun :D IF ANYONE IS BORED, PLEASE CALL ME SO LETS PLAY TABLE TENNIS TOGETHER!
I need to find inspiration to mug. Argh, someone give me some inspiration. Why was I so geared up to mug on friday? Arghhhh *facepalm*

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Saturday, September 4, 2010

LOOK OUT!
LOOK OUT!
LOOK OUT!

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Friday, September 3, 2010

Day 6: A stranger
Dear stranger,
First I don't know wth I'm writing a letter to you anyway. You won't be reading my letter because you don't know me, and you will probably think it's a flyer when I give it to you since I'm too poor to afford an envolope. Oh well, I'm finding you in Jurong East. Because you are a stranger and you are strange, and I don't talk to strange people, the letter shall end here.

OH MY GOD THE LETTER IS SO STUPID
Today is the last day of school and it had'nt been an awesome day.
First HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERENA MAK CUI WEN AND I OWE YOU SOMETHING WAHAHA
Lessons are boring and work is piling up. Ahhh, I need moral support from my friends, so much so much support.
Thanks hubert for mugging with me today.
Thanks ying jie for buying me a soft toy banana!
Thanks terence for being willing to mug with me.
Thanks Yi wen for collecting money with me and lending me money and agreeing to mug with me, even though you owe me something which I will kill your for.
THANKS TO MY JUNIORS WHO HAVEN'T PAID YI WEN AND I MONEY AND MADE ME STARVE.
Thanks to my supportive friends who have been there to pull me out of my misery this whole week.
Thanks to people who doubt and hate me so much because you have given me a new experience in my social circle.
Thanks to people who have tried to make me high all the time :D
MUGGING FTW!!

Hey! Looks like I'm a guy born to be forever BROKE. BORKE. BORKE. WHEN CAN I HAVE $20 TO SPEND?!

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Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Wondering if there is a problem with me because I feel emo without reason sometimes, like now.
Ahh...
I think I'm sad because I'm sad.

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Day 5, my dreams:
Dear dreams:
Please give me this sense of accomplishment.
I dream:
That I will be anxiety-free forever
That my hair is style-able and is straight all the time
That I am an awesome guitarist, and to have a damn nice guitar
That I am an awesome actor
That I can project my voice
That I am rich and I live in a condo
That I can earn at least 6k a month
That NS is after University
That I will never be bored and that I can do hobbies that I like every single day

Today is very sian.
Stoning around at home all the time... And I can't find anyone to go out with -.-
However yesterday was awesome!
I found out that table tennis is a fun game to play!
*looking for tables in my CC*
Halo 3 is still as fun!
And I want a better guitar -.-

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