I'm so fucked up today.
My mom is picking on me non-stop after I just reached home.
I ate and I was pretty full. She said I took too little rice.
"Bu hao chi gai ci bu zhu la. Na jiang shao fan, shen me tai du"
Fine I took a scoop more.
"Shen me tai du. Mei da mei xiao. Chi fan gei wo can shi bu shi?"
I got fucking pissed off. I just reached home and she screws me up like that. My bro took as much rice as me and whatever, and yaya, he's always the angel all the time.
I gobbled down my rice and eat my anger down and I went to bathe.
"Fa pi qi lor, nian yi dian fa pi qi lor. Gai ci bu shuang bu chi la, bu shuang gai ci mei tian wai mian mai fan chi la."
I was crying when I bathed because I don't know whether I should be pissed. Even when I'm pissed, I don't want to apologise.
Then I went to do scs on my com. Just coincidentally my bro's com broke down.
From outside the room:
mom: "You xie ren lor. Dong bu dong jiu fa pi qi. Fa pi qi dong lai dong qu long huai dian nao lor. Ta na ge ren jiu shi zhe yang de lor."
I fucking heard it.
I fucking, fucking heard it.
Dear mom, I'm sorry I fucking screamed at you for accusing me of things I totally didn't do. It's damn unreasonable, and I'm your son. Can you show me some god damn respect and stop blaming all the shit on me without using your brains?
I screamed at you and I don't feel like apologising at all. And the tears keep flowing. Anger or sadness?
Fucked up la.